Learning to Listen To Your Body

Learning to Listen to Your Body

I remember the first time I couldn’t fit into a pair of jeans that I swore I’d had forever. It was as if they were always going to fit, no matter what they were my trusty go-to pair. I remember thinking that I’d gained weight and as I pinched my love handles I thought about how I could change this part of my body. I was 14.

Clearly amidst the changes of puberty, though I’d had my period for three years already my whole body was filling out and while my breasts had already developed early I could NOT believe that I was a C cup. You can bet I was taunted and teased. In truth, I had a tiny frame, and boobs and was absolutely everything that anyone could make fun of. It was mortifying. I walked around trying to cover up LITERALLY every part of me. I wore covered tops, t-shirts, I’d always been relatively tom-boyish but this accelerated my fear of being observed for my body and it instigated this self-loathing of it.

Fast forward two years, I’m an active sports player at the peak of my game just starting out on the JV volleyball team as a freshman. And then I get slammed with a crippling illness and month and months later a final diagnosis. If you haven’t read my full story you can read more here. I went through months of trying to comprehend not what was going on with my body, but why.

I was consumed with both hatred for my body turning on me and determination that it wasn’t going to stop me from living tha I actually missed a huge point. Well, I suppose missed is relative if you consider that I understand it now. I never thought that my body was actually trying to communicate with me.

In both of these cases, my body was doing EXACTLY what it is supposed to do. EXACTLY what it’s designed to do. I am a female who at some point may have children and so my body was putting on weight and transforming to be able to support and give life some day. And for the love, I was 14. It’s terrifying to think what little girls and teenagers think of their body’s this day in age.   I’m hopeful that with more body positive movements and women I truly madly deeply admire (and have mega girl crushes on) like Jen Pastiloff, Jessamyn Stanley, Rachel Brathen, Dana Falsetti and Kerri Verna along with so so many others who are standing up for young women to understand they are enough just as they are that this is getting better.

What I didn’t realize while being a teenager my most ill, was that the illness, the symptoms rather (before it had a label) were all a pathway of communication for my body to my brain. In order for me to comprehend that something deeper was going on internally I needed to experience the physicality of it. I needed to understand the language of my body. Something I’ve come to know and continually explore over many years later.

Our body’s are intricate systems that work on a delicate level of message processing. Think about it. Your body is constantly speaking to you. You have a headache; maybe you’re coming down with something or perhaps something you ate doesn’t sit well. You’re swollen; you may not be flushing out your system or you may be holding on to water from too much sodium. It can be great things as well. You get goose bumps the instant someone gently touches the back of your arm. The sensation you feel on your skin when you receive a bear hug from your dad. The feeling of having someone kiss you for the first time on your forehead. These are all forms of language that your body has with YOU. It’s a matter of breaking down, of trusting yourself and getting deeper into how you communicate.

I’ve worked with myself for years on this. Through feeling into what’s right for me, experiencing sensory releases through acupuncture, through food as medicine and through embodiment yoga there are so many ways that I’ve been able to better understand my own body’s communication pathways.

It’s not always a matter of asking why. Your body first and foremost asks you to listen. To tune in, to tap into the depths of your physicality and soul. This is how you get to the heart of your body’s language. It’s why I am so excited to co-lead the Body Language Workshop that Tera Bucasas and I have created and are hosting at the end of this month.

I am so incredibly passionate about this because every cell in me wishes and hopes that those of you, and for all those young women out there and honestly boys too, won’t be walking around questioning their bodies and wondering “what’s wrong with me?” On October 30th I want nothing more than to help guide people more into trusting their bodies, on a physical and emotional level. I am so overjoyed to be able to share this with you all. The workshop takes place in Seattle, October 30th from 2-5 PM and if you’re interested you can register here! I hope to see and get to explore more with you all there!

Body Language Workshop




Register for the Body Language Workshop with Kari Owens & Tera Bucasas 

Vanilla Spiced Sautéed Apples

This week has been what has felt like a rollercoaster. It’s been full of such enjoyable highs and extreme lows. And I’m not alone, there’s so much anxiety in the air right now, collectively among many of us about the current state and future of the world and particularly America. It’s enough sometimes to think about our own lives, then the lives of people we love,  on top of an entire nation. That’s a lot to carry, I tell ya.

Vanilla Spiced Sautéed Apples

Nearly everyone in my close circle has had a rough week, from the loss of loved ones, extreme lack of sleep, past experiences resurfacing (personal experiences!) to being violently ill. And I’ve felt it all on a deeply emotional level this week. I couldn’t make it through Wednesday without bursting into tears every few minutes. Thank God for snuggles with my cat, close friends and knowing that I wasn’t the only one riding this wave. With the full moon approaching this weekend and the massive Typhoon storm coming in in the PNW I get that the Universe and Mother Nature are all really feeling it too, and it comes as no surprise. And yet still, makes it no less hard to deal with.

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How To Lead A Successful Life

How To Lead A Successful Life



I found this tiny notepad in my purse pocket while I was traveling. Ever since I can remember I’ve carried small notepads around with me to jot ideas and thoughts down at a moments notice. I had packed one for my trip, but this one was different. It was old, worn, with every page full.

I opened it up to read it, quickly realizing that it was from a few years ago, not that long after I had lived in Florence. It’s full of randomness, to most people. Lists, thoughts, quotes, poems, you name it. On one page there was a list – it’s titled “To Lead A Successful Life”. My initial thought was that my opinion of success looks very different than it used to and this list probably would be reflective of that. And yet, as I read, I realized in fact it was a complete reflection of the life I have now.

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Chronic Strength

Life is such a funny thing. Maybe it’s the interconnections of the social sphere’s maybe divine intervention and purpose, but the world seems so small when we think about how we are brought together. I’ve never met Dominique Stratton, but when she reached out about contributing to Soul Power, and I immediately read her blog, I knew that her story was one of power and relatability. One that only she can share. Little did I know, that she actually is the sister of a woman I went to high school with! I had no idea, until I saw her sister share a totally “bragging rights” post about Dominque’s blog, a mental life. I couldn’t believe it. What a small world. I know that her vulnerability and REAL talk about depression and mental illness is going to have you all shaking your heads in agreement and uttering, “hell yes”. But I’ll let her do the rest of the talking :)

Chronic Strength

6.8% of U.S. women, less than the age of 34, have high blood pressure; a statistic that I never imagined that I would be a part of at the ripe age of 28. Happily married, in the throws of a master’s degree program (nearly finished), and less than a week into basking in the emotional sunshine of newfound motherhood, I knew I was strong, but strength hadn’t reached its full potential in my life. It wasn’t until this year, that I’ve realized what strength truly encompasses. How beautiful it would be to grow as strong as an earthed tree, yet avoid all the tears and turmoil it took to get there; maybe in another life.


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Herbed Duck Egg Scramble

Herbed Duck Egg Scramble
I am nearly ready to go on my soul trip. I can’t believe that it’s only a week from today! I finally feel I can actually start getting excited about it. I’ve been so busy lately, and I don’t mean to make busy a glorified state of being, it’s just truly how it’s been. So I haven’t fully been able to get super excited about leaving for my trip. I’ll be going to Stockholm, Croatia and Florence and when my heart thinks about traveling right now it is so fully of pure joy. This is some of my own deep self-care work that’s vital to my own health, happiness and inner relationship. I am gearing up for the kickoff of September Self-Care on Monday, I cannot wait for everyone who is a part of this! Self-care has been so integral to my own healing, so I know how significant this will be to those are who are a part of it.

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Why Self-Care Isn’t Selfish

Why Self-Care Isn't Selfish



Self-care isn’t selfish, it is however, a choice to actively love yourself through actions, practices and rituals. Self-care is about learning refinement of how best to take care of yourself, not about attaining perfection. This comes from a deeper commitment to love yourself. It doesn’t matter whether you love every inch of your body, or if there are certain things you’re working on to better yourself. It is a strong connection to honoring yourself for where you are right now. It is a deep, loving support of yourself so that you can live with intention and peace within your life.


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Zucchini Noodle Shrimp Pasta

Zuchinni Noodle & Shrimp Pasta



I can’t wrap my mind around where summer went. It feels like it was just the beginning of July and here we are now at the end of August. Who let that happen?

One thing I know for sure, I am soaking in on all of the summer produce possible. Fresh items like peaches, nectarines, berries (all the berries!), summer squash and greens are in such abundance right now. So I am using them up in every way I can possibly fit them into my meals.

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The Roots of Grief

Part of why I love having Soul Power as a part of this site is because it provides the opportunity to further connect with one another as a community. I appreciate so much the depth at which people are willing to go with their writing, and personal anecdotes. Carrie Lewman, is a brave woman who writes over on her site carrielewman.com.  I’ve come to know her virtually through her participation in my September Self-Care program a year ago. She took so much away from that experience, and continued to help herself in her journey to healing. It brings me so much joy to share with you her writing as a part of her process in understanding herself in dealing with loss and a deeper connection within.

*If you’re interested in this upcoming September Self-Care program more info –> here. See Carrie’s raving post on her experience here.

Roots of Grief

My thoughts on death and loss have always been that grief is what you experience afterwards. That it is a stage you enter into. Actually grief is not something that happens to you, it is something you do afterwards. It is your reaction to loss or death. We have all heard of, and perhaps walked the many stages of grief; anger, denial, depression, acceptance, etc…, but no one ever speaks of the heartbreak. It is essentially the root of grief and where most people get stuck. Your heart has been broken as the result of loss and this loss does not always directly pertain to physical death. It can be the demise of a relationship, loss of a job, relocating, loss of innocence, and disappointment in life not turning out how you thought it would, just to name a few.

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Stone Fruit Salsa Salmon {AIP & Paleo)

Stone Fruit Salsa with Salmon



If you follow me on social media, you’ll know that I got the most random episode of a sinus cold this past week. It took me by complete surprise. It is the middle of summer, after all. I was fine on Tuesday, but I woke up Wednesday morning and could barely breathe through my nose, lost my sense of smell and generally felt pretty miserable. Lucky me, I had a busy day that day with back to back meetings so I pushed through. Later that evening I totally crashed and ending up breaking a fever through the night.

I knew there was no way I could fight this thing on my own. At the onset I took vitamin C, B and zinc to help my immune system and body overall. Throughout the day I loaded up on turmeric and broths, the healing foods. Most importantly, I called my acupuncturist!

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