I can’t wrap my mind around where summer went. It feels like it was just the beginning of July and here we are now at the end of August. Who let that happen?
One thing I know for sure, I am soaking in on all of the summer produce possible. Fresh items like peaches, nectarines, berries (all the berries!), summer squash and greens are in such abundance right now. So I am using them up in every way I can possibly fit them into my meals.
Part of why I love having Soul Power as a part of this site is because it provides the opportunity to further connect with one another as a community. I appreciate so much the depth at which people are willing to go with their writing, and personal anecdotes. Carrie Lewman, is a brave woman who writes over on her site carrielewman.com. I’ve come to know her virtually through her participation in my September Self-Care program a year ago. She took so much away from that experience, and continued to help herself in her journey to healing. It brings me so much joy to share with you her writing as a part of her process in understanding herself in dealing with loss and a deeper connection within.
My thoughts on death and loss have always been that grief is what you experience afterwards. That it is a stage you enter into. Actually grief is not something that happens to you, it is something you do afterwards. It is your reaction to loss or death. We have all heard of, and perhaps walked the many stages of grief; anger, denial, depression, acceptance, etc…, but no one ever speaks of the heartbreak. It is essentially the root of grief and where most people get stuck. Your heart has been broken as the result of loss and this loss does not always directly pertain to physical death. It can be the demise of a relationship, loss of a job, relocating, loss of innocence, and disappointment in life not turning out how you thought it would, just to name a few.
If you follow me on social media, you’ll know that I got the most random episode of a sinus cold this past week. It took me by complete surprise. It is the middle of summer, after all. I was fine on Tuesday, but I woke up Wednesday morning and could barely breathe through my nose, lost my sense of smell and generally felt pretty miserable. Lucky me, I had a busy day that day with back to back meetings so I pushed through. Later that evening I totally crashed and ending up breaking a fever through the night.
I knew there was no way I could fight this thing on my own. At the onset I took vitamin C, B and zinc to help my immune system and body overall. Throughout the day I loaded up on turmeric and broths, the healing foods. Most importantly, I called my acupuncturist!
When spring and summer come all I can think about are getting my hands on all the fresh produce and vegetables possible. It’s a time when I leisurely walk the farmer’s markets. I am constantly inspired by fresh local produce, and right now there is so much to be excited about. Between fresh berries, figs, collard, dandelion greens, zucchini, and asparagus there is so much right now to make healthy eating super convenient.
Seeing all of the green vegetables as I tote them home in my market bag is one of my simple pleasures in life. It makes me so dang happy. Does anything do that for you?
I get asked all the time, “What brought you to Seattle?”
It’s a funny a question to me with a million different answers about what could possibly lure me across the country. Most people, are expecting the common answer, a job, or a relationship. Neither was the case for me.
When I begin to tell them what truly brought me, I take a moment, to soak it in, to read the person in front of me a bit and get an idea of how this will land for them. I explain that the only way for me to have made a move clear across the country, knowing not a soul, was trusting my hearts inner knowing. I knew intuitively that this was a place I needed to be and I needed to do whatever in my power to make that happen.
I didn’t have grand plans of what it would look like to move here. What kind of life I’d have exactly. I didn’t even truly know what it looked like since I’d never even been to Seattle. The only thing I knew was in the quiet moments, when I allowed myself to become in tune with what my inner voice was saying, there was no way of denying that this move would be a pivotal part of my life.
I confided in my friend Brooke, I was “thinking” about this move and she told me a few things that blew me away. First she said, “I think you’ve done enough thinking, you just need to do it.”
Brooke came into my life not so coincidentally, I had been actively seeking out more education in yoga, she was a local teacher near where I worked and I happen to take her workshop on the beginnings of yoga teachings. We realized how close we lived together, and before we knew it, I was taking private sessions with her and we were becoming close confidants healing each other along the way. As I talked over the phone with her, and told her about what had been showing up for me intuitively for my next steps in life, she said, “You never know, whose life you’re supposed to touch by going out there, they are waiting for you, and you have yet to know who’s life will change yours.”
I thought she was dead on then, but I can tell you now that I’ve never heard a truer premonition. The people that I’ve not just met here, but created a loving vibrant community with, have allowed me to show up in every way as my true self. Moving here, has been so much about giving myself the space and grace to really enjoy being me. It’s the greatest gift I’ve ever given myself. The highest form of self-love was listening and the trusting myself throughout the process. And in turn I’ve been gifted tenfold with people who have come into my life here.
When you’re able to allow your intuition to guide you, fear may be present but it doesn’t have the right to speak. When you follow your heart’s desires, the outcomes are beyond your imagination. Don’t sit around waiting or thinking that something won’t work out or being hesitant to follow through because of failure. Fear is tar that keeps you stuck, while your inner guide keeps you mobile.
I live from that space of intuitive knowing, but I didn’t know how this move would work out. All I knew was that it would, and I trusted in that to the very core of my being. Don’t be afraid to trust yourself, you are the only one who can say what is right for you. Be open to listening to what it is you’re really wanting as you never know where and to whom it will lead you. So I am celebrating the one year anniversary of my move to Seattle by sharing with all of you, this story, and the power of deciding your next step in life. You already know it, whatever it is.
I haven’t written a post in a while. I could start to tell you that I’ve been uninspired. Truthfully, I told myself that, and even believed it for a little while too, honestly. But the more I thought about it the more I realized that actually it hasn’t been from lack of inspiration. I’ve got recipes rolling out left and right (just not posted) and I’ve a steady stream of article ideas going constantly in my mind, and some even written and not shared.
No what I’ve been doing is a lot of living. I’m a firm believer that everything comes in waves and sometimes certain periods of our lives are meant to focus on specific areas and that’s okay. Writing, though I still do it for myself, hasn’t been one of those focuses for me lately.
There’s part of me that feels I should constantly be churning out content for you all, for this amazing community that I’ve some how had the fortune of getting to facilitate. And then I remember how the word should is an asshole, and I feel a little better ;). In all seriousness I am steadfast in my belief that I can’t just write for the sake of writing, that what is meant to be heard, shared or seen will just naturally flow out of me at the moments when it needs to be released. We all receive messages just when we need them, and that’s exactly how I want my writing to be delivered. Landing just where it’s supposed to, when it’s supposed to, for whoever may need it.
This reflection has occurred a lot lately. Between working with people in my day-to-day work life, settling into routines, navigating the dating scene while remaining reserved (and sane), exploring both the natural wilderness and my own wildness, I’ve been creating, manifesting new projects and finishing up my Amba yoga teacher training. I realize that everything I do is to share it with other people. I am compelled by an inner burning desire to enrich my life through these experiences that translate into lessons and anecdotes that shape and mold me, but also help people in ways I never could have imagined. There is power in experiences I’ve had and yet to have.
We often wonder if we’re on the right path. If where we’re headed is the right way and if our direction will lead us to where we want to be. Is our life’s purpose guiding us correctly, or is there interference between our heart and minds?
The truth is, we’re only “there” for a short period, and then we move on to a different path. Some paths we stay connected to and become integrated in us as a part of our lives, but still, every illusioned destination is temporary, it’s only happening until it is simply no longer or we move to a new exploration.
Think of all the different things you said you wanted to be when you grew up. The age old question we ask young children can receive a myriad of imagined answers. Veterinarian was on my top, which later turned into a chef, later changed to journalist and magazine designer. All of these different desires held temporarily spaces in my life where they severed purposes, and then it would morph into new interests.
Prior to the days where I no longer eat grains and legumes I loved hummus! Seriously I’d dip whatever I could into it, pretzels, carrots, cucumbers, spread it on tortillas the list goes on. When I think about how I used to eat, it was never a poor diet, the main difference between what I felt was healthy then, and what I know is healthy now is a matter of nutrients. And even though my diet lifestyle was seemingly “healthy” is was nutritionally void.
I am not here to protest legumes, or tell you that they are bad, by any means. Since healing with AIP I have had an occasional chickpea with no ailments. However, knowing what kind of damage they can do to the gut (one that still is healing) long term I choose not to eat them. I think they can be great for some people who already have incredibly established gut flora and a microbiome that eat’s the crap out of carbs (in a good way!) But I’m taking a gander that you may not be that person either. So in desperation of wanting that salty, creamy dip back I’ve been experimenting with ways to create a similar palate without the use of legumes.
I should also note, a major factor in why I love traditional hummus is it’s amount of protein. It is an awesome source of clean protein, and because of this fact, I am SO happy to say that the vegetable I used is LOADED with protein. In fact, you probably didn’t know that one large head of cauliflower has roughly 16 grams of protein. Yep, that’s right, good old cauliflower is actually a protein powerhouse, aren’t we lucky!? Well you will feel that way after you eat this hummus, I can promise that!
1 large head cauliflower cut into florets 1 head garlic peeled
1/2 cup extra virgin olive oil
Zest and juice of one lemon
1/2 teaspoon salt
Fresh Italian parsley and olive oil for garnish
Vegetable crudites for dipping!
*optional* two tablespoons Tahini for a richer and creamier texture (note this is not AIP) but adds in some extra protein as well, if you tolerate it.
Preheat the oven to 400. Wash and chop the cauliflower into small florets. Remove the skin from the garlic and place them all on a baking sheet with a touch of olive oil.
Place in the oven for 30 minutes and then stir, then leave in for another 15- 35 minutes until they are golden brown.
Place the cauliflower and garlic in a high speed blender or food processor. Blend on high until it starts to form a creamy paste. Stop the machine and push down the excess on the sides, add the lemon juice, lemon zest (+tahini if you so choose) and then slowly begin adding in the olive oil a little bit at a time. Blend some, then add some more oil, blend again and so on until the oil is completely gone. You may need to scrape down the sides of the blender to get everything incorporated, in the end you should have a creamy dip.
Garnish and enjoy with your favorite veggies or in a veggie wrap!
So you’re in a funk or a bad mood. Perhaps something happened at work or with a friend and now you’re all bent out of shape. It could even be that you’re just feeling low, not exactly your enthusiastic self, but not sure how to change that.
I know we can all raise our hands in agreement that we’ve been there before. I know I have. I’ve dealt with depression, panic attacks, funks and mood swings my whole life, and what I’ve come to learn over the years are a few key components to actually shifting your energetic vibration to change your mood.
It’s the newest trend in the foodie culture to sit down to a big bowl of grains filled with all kinds of warm yummy toppings like eggs, greens, vegetables and other delicious edibles. So in doing what I feel is a public service to what I’d call the “non-grain community” at large is create a “grainless” bowl that resembles it’s original inspiration, yet tastier, more nutrient dense, and vegetable focused.
These bowls are the perfect dish to transition from winter to spring as they’re served warm, with warming spices and a pop of citrus from the kumquats. Personally, around this time of the year I cannot get enough of kumquats to save my life! They’re so fun, for one, and for two they are basically nature’s starburst!!